This blog is specifically in generalities. I know it is supposed to be personal. As you read I pray you will see why it is written in this fashion.
I work with an incredible bunch of people. As a chaplain I am privileged to walk beside people at the most vulnerable times in their lives. So many times we are focused on the patients and their families. However, I want to take a minute to focus on the individuals who appear to blend into the background. The hospital staff member…“Tracy” for the purposes of this blog, Tracy – is the professional or ancillary staff member.
Tracy is an incredibly, caring, faithful, loving person. When Tracy walks into a room s/he is walking on sacred ground. Many times Tracy steps into it, literally! Sometimes a patient/family is in crisis mode and no amount of caring concern breaks through the stress and anxiety the patient/family is feeling or displaying.
What does Tracy do with that stress and all the emotion that has entered into Tracy’s energy field? Tracy laughs, cries, cracks jokes-sometimes inappropriate for the patient and family to hear, prays, and the most harmful to Tracy’s well-being-DOUBT. Tracy has doubts about her ability to care, his ability to be compassionately present, and so many times Tracy questions whether or not s/he is going to Heaven or Hell because of a thought that releases some of the stress.
As a Chaplain, I am supposed to offer words of comfort during times like this. How do I say, “I know you are doing the best you can and it is okay to feel or think the way you do”?
How do I say, “Your Supreme Being is looking at you and crying, laughing, or just being numb with you…you are not alone?”
So when my words cannot be enough to help you, I say, “I am here, to listen, to cry, to doubt with you…where ever you are right at this moment.”